Well my weekly blogging went out the window.  This last week has been crazy with work and Thanksgiving but here I am today.

I am finding that when Monday comes around I start getting excited for Thursdays.  That means one more shot in my system, one tiny step closer in transforming my body. 

A physical step I took this week was receiving the binders I ordered.  I wore one the first night to work and one last night out and about.  It is challenging at work with all the movement but just have to deal with it and adjust as needed.  It's almost harder because having them compressed makes me more aware of them and that's annoying.  Last night went well, still trying to find clothes that help.  Looks like I'm going to have to layer with shirts which will suck when it gets warmer since the binder is a bit hot by itself. 

This only makes me want to have chest surgery even faster though.  It's frustrating to try so hard to hide and pretend that they aren't there.  Why does money have to rule the world?  Just trying to live and I have to wait and save until I can be happy getting rid of what I have despised about myself for so long?

One thing last night was even though I was wearing a binder, so in my mind I was more visibly a man.....someone still used female pronouns towards me.  That really pissed me off.  Angie pointed out that my voice and features were still female.  I have to keep reminding myself that this is a slow process and to have patience.  I have to adjust just as everyone else does.