Here I am on the first day of a new year!   Any new year resolutions?  No, I don't like them because I feel it's an easy way to be disappointed at the end of the year.  I am looking forward to seeing the effects of the T this year and I do wish for a healthy transition through it all.

I just finished the overnight shifts and got through the holidays.  Things can calm down now.....please calm down now! 

For Xmas Angie gave me a bunch of shirts...which I really wanted..and a couple of razors....which I really needed.  I love her and her support so much!!

Last night was New Years Eve and I got all dressed up in my new digs.  I felt great about myself!  My other goal was to look good for my wife! 

New effects of the Testosterone??  Not really.  The only noticeable thing is my libido.   Let me say that things are increasing.  I'll leave it at that. ;)  

I had my 30day Drs. appt on Dec 18th.   She just wanted to know how I was feeling....depressed, suicidal?  Nope, pretty happy overall.   I have my next appt in March which at that point they will probably do testing on my levels.  She said that it usually takes 6 months to notice any changes in levels or anything.

On Jan 12th I have a consultation with a surgeon for my chest.  I'm going to find out what is involved, more of a idea on cost and to see if I need to change my insurance at all to see if that can help out even a little bit.  

This is going to be the hardest part for me.  Wearing the binder is so uncomfortable.  The new shirts really help for the most part but the binder makes me more aware of my chest, I feel bigger.   Because the T hasn't had much affect visually, I haven't been wearing the binder regularly.   What happens when that changes though?  And I have to wait a full year to get surgery?   This is my only true depressing moment.  But I just have to keep on, wear bigger clothes and deal with the binder. 

I am again so thankful for the support I continue to get from friends and family.  I know some people don't understand and some people need time to process.  But one example was my brother in law telling me last night that he respects me more now, realizes that this took a lot of courage for me and that he is there for me in any capacity that he can be!   Another was my sister calling me "Bro" in a comment on F'book.  One more is my Dad being the same Dad from all my life.  Truly loves me and truly cares about my life!   Yes, I thought things might get a little awkward when I came out as Trans but they are not! 

Feeling Grateful!