Today marks 2 months since my first shot of Testosterone.  It doesn't seem that long but on the other hand it seems like forever to get this far.

What changes have happened due to the T?  I can feel the effects now.  My body temperature is a little warmer, some hot flashes.  Also a little more irritable and impatient...or maybe that's just at work  ;).  My hunger is huge!  I can eat then a little while later, I am painfully hungry again!!   A major change is acne on my head!  Not on my face but on my head!  All over my temples and along the back of my head.  Crazy!  My voice is starting to be deeper on a consistent basis when talking normal.  When I talk with inflictions it goes back up to where it was.  It now sounds like I have a cold when I don't!  I've also noticed that I'm getting a little more facial hair.  It's not very noticeable but I see it!  The 'stache is getting a tiny darker!  In bright enough light, you can see it!!!

Yes, I am very anxious for facial hair.  I have always wanted facial hair!  I have pics at Halloween where the costumes revolved around doing painted facial hair when I was younger.  Heck, even now....the first thing I think of when planning Halloween costumes with Angie is "What can I do that will involve facial hair"? 

I have been watching a bunch of Youtube videos of transitions, I applaud the people that are good with tracking their journey.  It's amazing and I wish I was as dedicated at doing the same.   I try hard to do this because it was requested and  for me to look back at someday.

Last Monday I had a consultation with a plastic surgeon that my Dr. referred me to.  Angie was able to go with me! :)   It was a quick visit.  I went in thinking (assuming) that my insurance would not cover it.  Oh yeah, they said that when I made the appt.! The total for the surgery??  $5886!!   So we talked about doing the top surgery about Feb 2016 (next tax return).  She was fine with doing that far out because when she found out I had only been on T for 2 months and had not talked with a therapist, she was shocked.  She said if I did it any sooner I would need a letter from a Dr. stating that I have Gender Dysphoria. 

Dysphoria......I personally don't like that word.  It sounds like a disease or something.  I understand that it's a condition but I don't think of myself as having a condition.  I was just born with the wrong body!   I digress ...

So Angie and I had been talking that we should still call our insurance company and verify that they don't pay for it.  Well she called today......

THEY COVER IT!!  So after a few calls to my Dr. and the plastic surgeon.....I will be getting a letter from my Dr. and give it to the Surgeon and they are going to try to get a Pre-Authorization!  It seems too good to be true but we will keep our fingers crossed!  Hardest part will be getting 4-6 weeks off of work before the end of the year (which is when we had planned on doing it if we could save enough)  Actually getting it done before April 1st because our deductible is paid up right now and insurance starts new April 1st. 

I need to get it done as soon as possible.  I can not have my mind as a male and have a constant reminder of a female body.  Why....WHY did I have to get the big breast gene from my mother and grandmother???   Binding sucks!  I can't breathe, sit or eat comfortably.  Both Dr.s have nothing nice to say about binders either.  But, with the binder and a couple of shirts.....Not too shabby!

I am more then ready to go through the pain I know is involved to start loving my body.  I am starting to wonder what the sun will feel like on my bare chest.  It's a weird thought but I can't wait!